I lie awake tonight and I watch the sky....

I feel in my heart a deep aching for everything that I once knew and everything that I know is to come. I long for some predictability, but it seems like with every turn, something new comes and knocks me off my feet. I feel like I'm struggling for air. But I know that I have been blessed, and that when I fall, I fall into the grace of Christ, who first redeemed me. I don't know where to go from here, and it is hard to imagine making it through this day. I know that I have been redeemed through the blood of Christ, and He will help me to stand. Sometimes it is just so hard.

...and I wish it didn't have to be so high.